Namaste and walk in beauty!
I ushered in 2009 with a drive to the beautiful, cold, star-magnificent high desert town of Joshua Tree, and brief stops at two parties there. All the snow from the big storm that hit a few weeks ago has melted, but the ground is still very richly moist and the desert just felt good there! It was such a joy to drive on dirt roads pillared by giant Joshua Tree forests, warming me with their loving arms and wild gesticulations through the headlights.
It reminds me of a camping trip I made there on another New Year's Eve, 1988 I believe, with friends from the BLM fire crew - we camped at one of the park campgrounds, and it was cold - dropping to 14 degrees that night!
Like everyone else, my life is filled with many senses of loss, anxiety and concerns over our rapidly shifting economy and world, and also, at the same time, excitement and hopes for the big changes we are collectively and individually going through.
I happen to be one of the people who is ultra-sensitive, like it or not, to the collective "vibes," which has me alternating between an extra dose of anxiety, sense of loneliness and loss, and a feeling of excited anticipation over the rapid-fire changes occurring. I'm heartened to know that this is a time that "tries men's souls" (I like to think of "women," too) - as Thomas Paine, the great Revolutionary War era writer said - in short, we're all being called on to look deep into ourselves to find what we're made of - to get real, to understand that we each create our own reality, and the ultimate obligation we have to make our lives and society work!
That means working together, and working from the heart in a real way that I know so many of us have slid from in the past few decades of excessive spending and living, years of growing more and more detached from families and the little things that nurture us and so often sidelined by "doing too much" and "watching too much TV" and "withdrawing into cyber-worlds."
And so, with love and compassion for myself and for humankind, I put these energies into the open arms of the Great Spirit, the eternal and cosmic OM vibrations, Father-Mother-God, Earth, and the universe!
2009 will be the year I sell my house and move from Palm Desert and start something new
the year I allow love to come into my life, to allow myself to be loved
the year I trace the desert earth, and mountains, and all outdoors possibilities, reconnecting to my lifelong passion and love and healing passion of nature, hiking again, more and more
the year I continue to build my writing life and career
the year I give myself love, the love I showered on my daughter all these years
the year I face my fears of "empty nest" now that my daughter is grown, and bring new relationships into my life-fold - healthy and loving relationships
the year I walk in beauty with every step, awake and aware, even if scared and feeling alone
the year I give thanks for all I've had, and have, and will have, even though so many things feel empty right now. I choose to see that this is a "good" type of empty, that will allow "new" things and people to enter
the year I walk into the steps of my new life as a writer and poet and editor, embrace that more fully and continue to professionally grow - seeing my current job not as a limit, but a launchpad for the next adventures
the year I make friends and family and time for them a top priority
the year I fully learn that my spiritual name, Prema, means love, and to continue to share the love through my writing and creative work with those who cross my path
the year I create an entirely new and sustainable paradigm for my life - shedding the 10 year Palm Desert, daughter-raising old, and building a new chapter in my storybook
the year I learn to invite postive, forward actions to walk alongside my fears and anxieties and old and no longer useful concepts of my life and self that have pulled me down and that I'm now breaking free of
the year I am back on the move, and notice the moon and stars, and wrap the blanket of night sky around myself and shine
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