Good Karma-Hits Today!

the angel says I found you on your blog
it's good to know I have so much love to give

The angel wrestles a beast to the ground for me, when I walked the spillway
past the Indian village on one side and the Indian reservation on the other,
dogs barking at us and invisible coyotes lurking on the other, I felt so depressed
I thought something was following and stalking me. Brain chemistry dewired.
I felt the energy come off of you and I wrestled it down for you.

The angel is a former student who is now a colleague,
someone I helped write her childhood stories, now in a PhD program
and full of light and collegiality and love - in the hall, and she was looking for me
a fluke because I am now usually invisible on the job

The angel is my mother, taking time to talk to me by the pool
and help me see who and what are good for me and what is not

The angel is a pregnant belly full of poems, waiting to be born, gestating
and ready for labor when I am

The angel is a class of new creative writing students tonight,
some from last semester I felt like giving hugs
some from classes years ago who said they are back because I'm cool
so good, to send out energy that is good and now returns to me
with a boomerang effect.

The angel is a Christmas card in my office mailbox, from a month ago,
a wonderful new acquaintance comrade light-worker working tirelessly
for desert conservation and protection, full of kind words
and love, the angel is a poetry book in the mail from someone I met at the
Heyday Christmas party last month and lost his address, a Steinbeck scholar,
what a gentle touch, to receive his beautiful book of poems

The angel is my friend who says he is incredibly touched by my generosity
when all I did as give him a birthday card and a few books

The angel is my friend who takes me high and far into the most rugged desert
mountains I've ever seen - thick stands of lavendar, mesquite, ocotillo,
wildness I forget could exist - amazing rockslides and falls, boulders,
and who built a fire and let me burn some inner anguish away

The angel arrives to ease my burdens of work, brilliant enough to
know exactly what to do and take excitement in doing so,

The angel is my hot cup of chamomile tea with honey, the soft of my
down comforter - it's cold these past few January nights! - a slice
of Williams and Sonoma white and dark chocolate, with cracked bits
of peppermint candy on top, from a huge tin I've been working through,
my daughter received this at work from some of the wealthiest people
in the valley who are patients at her doctor's office, the angel IS my
daughter, heating the water for her mom, and thankfully giving BACK
the puppy chihuaha she brought home to babysit the past four days

The angel found me on my blog
my life, this day, little electrical impulses firing, imprinted in safe eternity
it's good to know I have so much love to give
it feels so good to love